The two adorable boys in my life right now (:
At the moment, my life is looking up and looking down, both at the same time. I'm finally in what will hopefully prove to be a steady relationship, I'm on the road to better paid employment, and I'm reasonably happy and healthy. However it seems that fate's not quite ready to let me settle down just yet. It's an almost universally known fact that when one thing in your life works out, another part has to come tearing apart at the seems. In my family for example, it's becoming hard to remember who's angry at who for what, but as it stands, two of my sisters aren't talking, my sister's moving out, and apparently I'm a terrible daughter.
Oh wait, mom, you already told me that a few months ago!
Despite this, I've been doing my best to stay positive, with help from a combination of jogging, massage, a good old hot bath at the end of the day, and making sure I put aside some "me" time everyday. Unfortunately, this "me" time leaves me less time to work on several dwindling friendships. What's hitting me hard is the partial loss of one of my closest friends. For the last few months, he'd been the closest person to me in the world, both physically and mentally- we had all the best parts of a relationship, without any of the drama and emotional mayhem. Or so I thought. It seems that in this case, it was not me, but my counterpart who was unable to remain unattached. I was hopeful that our friendship would continue to thrive, even without its physical aspect, but a few hours of company seem to indicate that it may soon wither and die. So I've gained a boyfriend, and possibly lost a friend. Just dandy, right?
I'm looking back over this and realizing that what started out as a fairly upbeat post has taken a dive, but really, what can you expect from a blog called Schadenfreude for Beginners?
At the moment, my life is looking up and looking down, both at the same time. I'm finally in what will hopefully prove to be a steady relationship, I'm on the road to better paid employment, and I'm reasonably happy and healthy. However it seems that fate's not quite ready to let me settle down just yet. It's an almost universally known fact that when one thing in your life works out, another part has to come tearing apart at the seems. In my family for example, it's becoming hard to remember who's angry at who for what, but as it stands, two of my sisters aren't talking, my sister's moving out, and apparently I'm a terrible daughter.
Oh wait, mom, you already told me that a few months ago!
Despite this, I've been doing my best to stay positive, with help from a combination of jogging, massage, a good old hot bath at the end of the day, and making sure I put aside some "me" time everyday. Unfortunately, this "me" time leaves me less time to work on several dwindling friendships. What's hitting me hard is the partial loss of one of my closest friends. For the last few months, he'd been the closest person to me in the world, both physically and mentally- we had all the best parts of a relationship, without any of the drama and emotional mayhem. Or so I thought. It seems that in this case, it was not me, but my counterpart who was unable to remain unattached. I was hopeful that our friendship would continue to thrive, even without its physical aspect, but a few hours of company seem to indicate that it may soon wither and die. So I've gained a boyfriend, and possibly lost a friend. Just dandy, right?
I'm looking back over this and realizing that what started out as a fairly upbeat post has taken a dive, but really, what can you expect from a blog called Schadenfreude for Beginners?
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